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Nancy  J Visel's avatar

Morning, John. Your prayer at the end is also my prayer. I have spent many years wondering why God would share so much with me and not really use me. I led worship at 2 different churches and was on the worship team in another and all 3 times I rarely felt the whole body connecting with what God was trying to bring and say.

Over the last 10 years He has gently and patiently shown me the true state of my brokenness and selfishness. It is horrifying, more so than any monster. I believe we have to experience our spiritual poverty to see God. " Blessed are the poor in spirit for they shall see God." I saw this years ago and thought I understood the depth of my need but I was truly blind to it.

Many if not most Christians think they are loving and get their value reinforced by their good works, ones that they have chosen for themselves because of the capability these works have of meeting their need not truly out of trust and sacrifice. The emotional singing and information load in a service are enough for us. We have no real intention to pick up our cross every day and die to our unbelief. Most wouldn't even know what this implies.

Jesus has been birthed in my heart but I have come to see that only the few places He has "met" me are able to walk in trust. The rest of my world has been diseased, broken and rebellious. So Now I am evangelizing in my own heartscape, awaiting with longing the second coming of Christ in my life, for Him to be governing my choices. If I didn't have His comforter in my heart I could never stand to really see myself. I am the monster, being saved and transformed by His incredible forgiveness.

In closing, only those who have been forgiven much love much. We have to have our eyes opened to our depravity to truly see just what power is in love and have the capacity for it to flow through us. How could we ever despise another if we have truly faced ourselves? How can we be of service to God ? Peter totally betrayed Jesus, I have as well. Paul persecuted and murdered those choosing to follow and trust God and I have as well. I am the pharisee and Herod and Hamen and the list goes on. The world is busy trying to cloak their monsters and making up for their errors when they could be forgiven. When we see the impossibility of this we either run or murder, really the only 2 choices we have apart from love's forgiveness.

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Christine P.'s avatar

I attend 2 different churches. Each one every other week. In both cases, I take ladies who are closer to 100 than 90. One of the churches I attend is a Presbyterian Church.

I had never been to a Presbyterian Church and so it is an experience I enjoy to a point. While, I find the standing up and sitting down and answering in unison to things the pastor says a little silly, no offense to Presbyterians, I enjoy the pastors messages. He discusses uncomfortable topics about inclusion and acceptance and love. He discusses carrying Jesus’s life and examples through our own lives. I have also met his husband, and they are both delightful people who are kind, gracious and thoughtful as they mingle with the congregation small as it is and generally well over 70 years old.

The other church I attend is very universal. It is in an assisted living facility and is loosely assembled of members of all faiths congregating in a rough congregation itself of 35 to 40 people. Most are in wheelchairs. Where a wheelchair is exempt, a walker or cane are present except for one regular and myself.

The pastor of this small group of aging misfits, who I adore used to be a Methodist minister. I met him through a Marine Corps veteran I took care of. While my Marine Corps veteran friend was agnostic or claimed to be, his friendship with this pastor, delighted me and amused me simultaneously.

At any rate, I enjoy both churches for the messaging. I also enjoy helping other people tremendously and worshiping with people who are in an aging group is quite a special experience.

Would I attend either church if I were not committed to my special relationships with these women? I definitely would attend the one at the assisted living facility. Joining with those wonderful seniors and communion with God is an experience that cannot be accurately described or labeled for the feeling of community We all share despite our different faith backgrounds as we worship God.

An interesting and thoughtful article or note as they call it here on sub stack .

Pardon my edits. I’m trying to do this on my cell phone before I head out to work.

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