BLUE

BLUE

I'm tired of treading water
in your great big pool
I look like a great big moron 
and feel just like a fool
But I still can't let go of
this need to cover shame
So, here I sit in all this amber
dying in all this pain

I know this is not for nothing
that things are going down
and I am wasting away, decaying
and look like a stupid clown
This is your doing Jesus
This is You working on my soul
patiently pushing me to
let go of control

I am just afraid of judgment
I have always played it safe
Hiding the real me in the basement
to starve like a homeless waif
while the pretty me got all the gravy
and I knew I was just not true
This is me crying out for mercy
This me me feeling oh so blue
This me wanting Your love, papa
me wanting more of You

Words, music, video & audio recording 
© John Brusseau, 6/11/24